Dear Diary –
I had the idea to write a blog last year, when everything felt heavy and exciting. My hope in writing the blog would be to set myself free from all the constraints and doubts I had felt over the course of my life progression and celebrate the incredible experiences and adventures I leaned into.
So why do I still doubt my power and refuse to blog?
Because I’m scared.
My goal with this blog has always been to reflect and process life experiences, and yet I have deep trouble writing something that could be worthwhile to place onto the web. Maybe it’s the concreteness of writing or the fact that one must build an opinion about someone in order to make any kind of impact.
I’m scared of people finding the blog and reacting to it in a negative way. I’m scared about the possible embarrassment I may face because something may not click for another human on the internet, but more so, I’m scared of reaching people I know who aren’t ready to see me for who I am and not who I used to be.
For all the things I’m learning, the most important lesson I’m learning is to face my fear and lean into the things that I dream of at night. So, let me create a cozy corner somewhere in the world wide web where I can sit and reflect on what’s happening. Maybe somewhere, someone will find this helpful, or maybe just me.
Either way, all is fine and all is well.
onward & upward –
Franziska